Friday, August 18, 2006

Project 2996

I hope Katie doesn't mind but as she seems to be receiving quite a bit of traffic of late...

On Sept 11, 2006 bloggers will be honoring those that fell in the Sept 11, 2001 attacks by writing and posting tributes for those heros. There isn't a whole lot of time left so if you are interested you can sign up here. More information about the project can be found here.

This is such a beautiful act of kindness and I hope that each of you are able to participate.

Happy Blogging
Indigo

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

MOVING RIGHT ALONG

This will be the last blog I write for a long time. Actually, I have no idea how long it will be before I get back on the Internet. As most know, we are moving, and our new place is out in the country, and I mean way out in the country. The town we will be living in only has a population of about 700, and there is no such thing as cable internet (for that matter, cable TV, but we can use Satellite dish.) We will have to go back to the primitive days and use a dial up modem. So, I am taking some very precious time to write this as our internet will be cut off today.

This has by far, been the hardest move we have ever made. In reality, we have been preparing to move (packing, etc.) for 2 months. The home we live in now (for 2 more days) is a two story home built in the early 1900's and sports servant quarters of 4 rooms in the back, as well as a large barn, and large well house. Perfect place if you have a lot of junk, which we did.





Our new home is one story and 3 bedrooms, and on 1 1/2 acres of land, and is just wonderful. But it does not have much storage space at all. Pretty much all it has is an old horse stall in the back.

I want to say just a few things concerning Rose and Invision Graphics and what they have written about me on their forum. Actually, I was not going to make any comments at all, but my good friend James Landrith emailed me last night to say that he had written a short blog on Katie's Logue. Since he has such a high volume of visitors, I decided I needed to make a few comments.

Shawn is assuming that I started the thread on Players and Psychos, rumored that he was an unemployed individual and that I placed Rose's picture on the thread. This is a false hood and I thought Shawn was savy enough to find out who started that thread. I know that Shawn does work and I think my reputation shows that I do not write anything unless it is truthful or well researched.

Speaking of truth, they said I lied about the pictures of the children on TW being removed. I did not lie about that, as twice when I checked, the pictures were gone. I will admit that they might not have been removed permanently but were not there at those two times I checked. Many times on our eBay store someone will email me that the picture is missing. The problem was with Photobucket and were shortly placed back.

This brings me to another subject of what was found in the forum. Shawn made a comment that my husband sold on eBay and insinuated that he made little money, and he would like to compare income between what he makes versus what my husband makes. First of all, who cares about who makes the most? I certainly don't. But he did try to make his statement sound as if my husband was just a poor little thing and forgot to mention the fact that he is, in fact, a Power Seller, which requires a certain volume and feedback to become such.

It was also discussed that I had issues with Authors Den. Where they came up with that is beyond me. If you look at my side bar under Assorted Wonderful Links, Addie Williams is there, which is a site for she and I both, where someone (and to this day, I do not know who) paid a life time membership for us. Another subject at hand in their forum was that I was not a good writer. Heck, I have no idea if I am or not. Some like what I write and some don't. But, I was honored after Katrina devastated so many to have a poem ELDER PRAYER, chosen with only a few others, to put on Podcast by Authors Den.

Then something was written about us living in a Mobile home, which we do not, but what if we did? Does living in a mobile home make people different? What has that got to do with anything? Are they saying that people that live in Mobile homes are inferior to them, that they are better than people who live in mobile homes?

A great deal more was written, and it is all distorted and manipulated to fit them, and to confuse their followers. This is not a surprise to me and expected.

Concerning the book I am writing, I do have a publisher who is very interested and becomes more interested each day as Rose, herself, helps promote the book. Actually, it might just be a good idea to go with Lulu or another POD as I think it would sell and could make more profits due to the interest now. LOL

Indigo will be taking care of my blog and monitoring comments for me. She knows that I accept comments as long as respectful, and even if they disagree with me. Everyone can voice their opinion.

Take care everyone and I will be reading when I can.
Hugs,
Katie

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Katie has asked me to edit this post a little and to also look after her blog (bwahahahahahahaha!) until she gets settled into her new place. I'm not as intuitive as Katie, so if you send a comment that you do not want published please be sure to say so in the comment otherwise they will be published. Any and all troll comments will be zapped.

Just briefly I want to add that it is typical for the group of trolls in question to demonize those who oppose them. If they can't find something on the person, they'll either make stuff up, twist the facts or resort to name calling and nitpicking. Sometimes all of the above. Katie is a good person but because she has taken on the task of exposing this cyberpath, she has come under attack. Personally I believe this attack is nothing more than a 'poor-pity-me-sign-up-at-my-site-and-donate-money' pr move but only the trolls know their real motive.

In short, it may take all of a minute but eventually this too shall pass (when the clicks and the poor baby back rubs stop) and trolls will move on to the next act in their High School drama. In the meantime, I'm sure Katie would love it if you all said prayers (or sent virtual hugs or said a mantra) for her and her family.

Hugs to all and happy blogging :)
Indigo

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

The World's Display

We are moving, and with our life this takes great time, especially with the choices and decisions we have to make in our years of age.
I will be back, with time and I will think of so much while away. And write as well.
Katie
The World's Display
Today
The World's display of fare
Broad on the map of opportunity
Is as always divided by circumstance
And time.

There is more of fare
Than fair
Considering the negatives
Of circumstance
And time.

But, so it always was
And is
And we will die, cheated
Of the most we might have done
If we'd been allowed
Before we died.
Addie W. Williams
May 18, 1983

Thursday, July 13, 2006

DOE says "Think Good Things & Have Good Dreams"

While most grandmothers are called by Grandmommy, Grandmother, Nana, Mom (with the first name of the grand parent attached to mom) and other sweet names, my name as a grand mother was totally unexpected. When my first grand son, DeShawn was born, I searched for the right name, and it seemed that nothing came up to fit me, so I just settled with Grandmommy, hoping that would work for me in the long run. And it worked well for awhile, good enough since nothing else came up.

Then Anthony, my youngest grand son came along, and I was amazed in his total beauty when I first say him at the age of less than a month old, sadly unexpected at my Mom's memorial. Both my grand boys light in their eyes held a special light in the lose of my mother.

Anthony changed my name a year latter when he started to talk. I thought he was saying DeShawn, but I was wrong, he was calling out for me, and my name was Doe. He cried it when he was tired, when he was sleepy, rejoiced the name of Doe when happy or when my attention was needed with him. To this day, I do not understand how or why he decided to call me DOE, and I accept this, as it is such a love name in regards of me having a new name replacing everyday grandmother expected name!

So now I am Doe, the one that today and hopefully in their future will they see me as their grandmother with worlds of who knows what, they named me Doe. (Maybe I am dear to them.) They are 2 & 4 years old and we have our bed time story of sleep time and many other special times.

Our bedtime story from me as Doe is special , and rules are no toys, no talking, no playing, or getting up at bedtime, and the most important thing when we close our eyes is "to think good things, and have good dreams." Then I kiss their face in their full yawn, not even sure if they know I placed the kissed in their half sleep, and watch them turn over to settle themselves within a deep sleep, and pat both their backs to make sure they are concentrating in their sleep. And I am thankful of my new name of Doe, and thankful it is so easy for them to say and future grand children can say with ease. And thankful that they dreamed up such a name and tickled that my grand children would called me of such a love name. I hope it is because I am a dear to them, yet, I realize that Anthony could not pronounce my name at the time, and Doe just fell in place and stuck. I love my grand boys, and telling the story of my name of Doe is something I want to remember and them remember as well.

Katie

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

PSYCHOPATH & SOCIOPATH DISORDERS & BEHAVIOR

Recently I was contacted by a reader of mine to surf and read on the behavior of PSYCHOPATH & SOCIOPATH. I am glad they suggested this, as there is just so much on this particular subject, and how it now affects us via the Internet. Please make sure you check out and read the links given at the end of this blog!

No longer are we thinking our next door neighbor, co-worker (even family) might posses the traits of this behavior, and we are now more and more seeing it on the Internet. We have seen movies that portray these type of people, and we sat back in amazement while watching the shows of "DAMN, these are scary people!". Now it has invaded our activity on our computer, and many times people become the victims of these types of behaviors, (maybe you) having no idea of why it happened.

There is just so much written on Psychopath & Sociopath behavior. While we think we have a pretty good idea of recognizing them, I wanted to blog on what I have discovered and it has certainly been an interesting and educating read for me. I am hoping to educate to some degree of what a psychopath is, as you might be a victim of one (or could become a victim of one) and have no idea of what you are dealing with.

While the articles say many things on the behavior of this group of people (of the ones I have read, and trust me, there is much information on this), they all say certain things in common of this type of individual. Perhaps you know one and can now recognize this type of person.

I read an interesting article about Trolls speaking about the disordered personality of antisocial types, which in reality is the same thing as psychopathy or sociopath behavior. The behavior of the Troll touches on personally experienced and what I have heard from others concerning their behavior follows, therefore my writing deals with this, but is not limited to:

1. Inability to accept or recognize social norms. I could go on forever with this in great detail, but it is recognized in other ways in my blog.

2. Repeated lying, deceitful, uses many aliases if discovered on one, then goes to another (especially if found out), conning and manipulative to others in order of personal or pleasure profit and gain.

3. Lack of remorse and irresponsibility concerning others, and then rationalize their behavior within their minds, disregarding the ones they have hurt, mistreated and many times destroyed.

4. They posses a narcissism behavior or grandiosity, need of admiration from others, yet total lack of empathy for others. Let me explain this more.

Concerning GRANDIOSITY , they need a sense of self-importance, and they accomplish this by exaggeration of their achievements, what wonderful things they have done, their religion, how they care, and expects to be recognized in a superior role for this. They have an unreasonable sense of entitlements and expectations, yet expect favorable or automatic compliance with their expectations. And with their interpersonal goals, they take advantage of those in their path to achieve their own ends, and that can be many things. And sadly, they are void of any empathy, and do not realize (or recognize) or identify with the feelings and needs of others, and shows arrogant behavior and attitude.

It has been expressed in several articles concerning trolls that have a personality behavior that they crave and feed upon constant need for attention, and are not happy at all when they are not the center of attention. Their writings are displayed in impressionistic form, and lacking of details, yet get very angry if questioned on this. Their behavior is manipulative and self centered, yet hard to recognize at first until you personally get to know the troll. The psychopath troll makes a point in provocative comments in order that emotional responses will be given by others. And many times when responses are given, they challenge the conversation, many times breaking the rules of chat or forum board, therefore being banned, and then cry VICTIM and go back in under a new identity.

I have found out through my research that this type of behavior of trolls do ask for forgiveness at times, and change their stories so that others will read it, using words of I made a mistake, instead of telling the entire story. The problem is that others are now questioning their behavior, and reading about it via the Internet, and they must do something to change it. The attention they are getting now is not what they wanted or hoped for, so they must ask for some type of forgiveness. More of this behavior follows in the blog, so keep reading!

OK, I am now ending the Troll comments that are related to Psychopath and Sociopath. It all has some relationship to the rest of what I have written. Heading now to all behavior of this group of people! You might see some redundant of the same behavior tho.

BEHAVIOR PATTERNS OF THIS TYPE OF BEHAVIOR, to include but not limited to!

1. Superficial and Glib~They can come across as very charming, intelligent (and actually, many are) and articulate individuals. They are very aware of what people find appealing and interested in, and work diligently to present themselves in favorable ways. As already stated, they tell tons (lies) of stories about themselves and their achievements and their attention need is fed when others think and believe on them, never knowing any better.

2. Egocentric~Total self-centered and under the unrealistic opinion that what everything and everyone does (or should) revolve around them. They have a superiority complex to the rest of society and think and feel they are right in questioning and violating all rules. They are arrogant, boastful, controlling, not to mention COCKY.

3. Manipulative and total deceitful~Their greatest talent is lies and then more lies. They still continue to carry on with their deception even when caught. Being caught is no big deal to them, even when confronted, as they just alter the details of their story.

4. Guilt & Remorse & Empathy and Emotions~ is total lacking with this type of individual and their behavior. They do not have the ability to "step into another's shoes", or relate to how the pain they have inflicted upon others is devastating. In the psychopath, they rationalize all they do and therefore do not feel any remorse or pain and possible destruction that they caused to others.

5. Impulsive~The psychopath revolves around here and the now, pretty much "living for the moment in time", and seeks instant total gratification (giving none, or little consideration to the consequences of their actions.)

6. Lacking in reliability and responsibility~This behavior problem among these individuals have no understanding or care of social goals, such as commitment, obligation, rules, etc. and cannot be counted on for them to understand. Making and breaking promises is not a problem with them, regardless of how it affects others.

7. Behavioral problems existing from early adulthood~Many times when looking into the psychopaths behavior, childhood problems were evident and present. Red flags go up if seen. Problems such as constantly lying, cheating, bullying, violence, just to name a very few.

8.Adult behavior~Antisocial~It all comes back to this. All the things I have already listed and spoken on. Standard and rules show no importance with them, and they do as they please, how they please with no regards as how it affects others. While their ways might not be criminal, they are most definite immoral. Their self centered goals are still the same, to think only of themselves and disregard how it affects others. Truly sad!

In ending concerning Psychopath and Sociopath (and I do apologize for this being such a long blog, but hopefully it will serve as an educational blog) I wanted to point out just a few more things that I have read concerning this. (As well as personal experience and others that have contacted me concerning this.) And I might be redundant in some of my comments on this.

These people and their behavior exhibit poor emotional intelligent, lack of conscience and unable to feel attached to people except in their own terms of their personal value. They usually start a relationship with others, and will invite the victim to participate in their game. (Sadly, the victim has no idea of the rules). They display a Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde personality. In other words, they play the part of the role to rope one in, so that they can get what they want! They have no conscience and their biggest goal is for their gratification only. They come from all walks and talks of life, making it easy to fool the victims. It is hard to spot one at first. And when spotted by someone else, they cry VICTIM, and think they are, as we do not understand them. They play games, hoping us to become a token in their play. Yet, when we see the rules are out of order and we do not want to play by their rules, we become a subject of their vengeance. And this is very scary! While the majority of us do tell some little white lies, and feel guilt on this, the psychopath cannot or will not discriminate why it is that they lie, cheat or steal from. With them, no one matters, and it could be you as a friend to them, family, but most likely you will feel in the end SUCKER!

This is the end of my blog and I hope it has given some education to this behavior. Please, please read the links available and search more on google on this subject.

LINKS:

Psychopathy and Antisocial Personality Disorder: A Case of Diagnostic Confusion
by Robert D. Hare, Ph.D.



Trolls May Have A Disordered Personality

Antisocial Personality Disorder

Look at the Psychopath

MSN GROUPS on PSYCHOPATH This last link I am not getting to come out right, but I will work on it, as it is a great read!